I have been having trouble writing here for a while. As the weeks passed by, I found more and more resistance within me.
Then I came to the realisation that all of the goals James and I had set out at the start of the blog, almost a year ago, are now being put on hold indefinitely. James now has a great job and a chance at having a successful career. Unfortunately, a career is something that flies in the opposite direction to the goals we had before, travelling around the world and being location independent. So we had to make the really hard decision to let go of those goals, at least for the foreseeable feature (= at least several years). It wasn’t an easy decision, one that took us weeks to even say out loud that we were going to let these goals go.
Please don’t think that this is all sacrifice on my part. I really love living in Edinburgh and so am quietly relieved that I don’t have to plan leaving this wonderful city any time soon. I’m thoroughly enjoying my voluntary work, and I have started to attend art classes. It’s not all that bad.
Still, now that those goals are gone, I’m feeling very lost. I don’t think I’ve ever not had a goal before. As I floated from one half hatched goal idea to another, James and I started to grow apart. We weren’t talking like we used to. Instead of talking, we watched films and TV programmes on the laptop.
We sat down and discussed the possibility that without goals, joint goals in which we both take part in, we would slowly grow apart and become mundane and indifferent to each other.
So now, we are on a hunt for a new goal. We don’t know what it is yet, but we’re having fun trying to figure out how to go about searching for a goal.
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Akiyo, I’m sorry to hear things get complicated for you. But I’m happy to read about you again. I was wondering how are you all the time a how things turn out for you. I keep my fingers crossed for you and James and your new goals!
Hi Alena, thank you so much for your comment. Life unfortunately has a way of always getting complicated, but we’ll be okay as long as we remain flexible
I will keep writing here to keep you all updated with how things are in our lives!
Great attitude! Take it as it comes and figure it out together – perhaps for now the goal is to make the most of where you are. Adventure can be had by “discovering” your city, or even just the block you live on. Kudos!
That is such a great idea Maria, thank you. It is true, so easy to take granted of what the place we live can offer us.
Dear Akiyo,
Your story touched my heart deeply. Wherever you do or whatever you decide, stay true to yourself and stay brave. You seem to be an extremely strong person with an incredible story! Give yourself time and follow activities that make you happy and give you strength. Don’t stop writing, ‘cause it’s a really great blog. All the best to both of you guys!
Leva, thank you so much for such an encouraging comment. I am enjoying ‘just doing what I want’, although I think others around me feel it’s not such a good idea. Anyway, I have a new project up my sleeve, which I am sure to report on soon
Hey Akiyo, you are an inspiration to me and everyone who reads this. Take care and good luck!
Guy
Hi Guy, thank you for such kind comment, I will keep up with it all!